Well here I am soo close to what i've wanted for so long, 18. I've managed to get a place, manage it, and have held my job for five months now. Just when things were almost great it all fell apart agian. I don't understand why everything seems to fall apart right in front of your eyes, It just makes you feel helpless when you know it's happening, and you try to stop it only making things worse. I wish more people appreciated the things they have, unstead of worying about what they dont have I've learned if you aint got it you might not get it, so envy what you do, and make it last...Before one day the door opens and it's all lost. What do you say when the words you feel, you can't speak, when what your feeling dosen't make any sense. Who do you turn to when you feel alone, where do you run to when no place feels like home, what do wish for when you don't know what you want, who do you pray to when you've not been heard, who do you fall back on, when nobodys there to catch you.
This song "heavily broken" by the Veronicas...reminds me of how I feel each and everyday.
Everyday I sit here waiting
Everyday just seems so long
And now I've had enough of all the hating
Do we even care, it's so unfair
Any day it'll all be over
Everyday there's nothing new
And now I just try to find some hope
To try and hold onto
But it starts again
It'll never end

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken
And there's nothing I can do

Almost giving up on trying
Almost heading for a fall
And now my mind is screaming out
I've gotta keep on fighting
But then again
It doesn't end


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The Veronicas, Blue October, daughtry, Hinder "lips of an angel" Bush...Reba..Mariah Carey, Matchbox 20, Creed, Guns' N' Roses, Eric Clapton, Lynard Skynard, too many.

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